Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Motivation

I am feeling very unmotivated lately. I still have some weight to lose and some unhealthy eating habits to kick. I have no problem keeping up with the running or biking to work, but the rest seems like a chore. I don't seem to have energy to think about lifting weights or doing more yoga. I am tired of thinking about what I should be eating and when or trying to come up with new things to cook or snack on. I am trying real hard to make good choices and not get bored and it is all very exhausting. I am even tired of the self portrait project, but I don't really want to give any of it up.

Keeping track of what I eat (minus the calories) is a great reality check for me. I see the amount of snacks I have some days and its absurd. So now I am really trying to focus on having fruits and veggies at the ready for snacks instead of reaching for another granola bar or nabisco pack. I think I've used these "100 calorie packs" and granola bars as a crutch and it has to stop. But doing the right thing just seems so time consuming at times, you know?

This weekend I went and bought all sorts of things to help with this, including fresh fruits and veggies from the Farmer's market and some edamame and tofu at Target. However, preparing it all just seems daunting. I finally cut up all the fruit so it is ready for me to just throw into a fruit salad when hungry or into a smoothie, but now I am out of ice. I think I got overwhelmed by the amount of food in my fridge and that all this stuff would go bad before I get chance to eat it because my brain is not yet wired to think fruit/veggies when I am hungry and I keep reaching for the granola bars or nabisco snacks. At least I did not replenish my chocolate supply when I went shopping, so that is something.

In addition to eating more fruit and veggies, I want to cut down on the amount of meat I consume. I think this is another crutch for me, so I want to start eating more vegetarian meals and seafood. I am doing good on the seafood, but the veggies still need work. So I bought an egg plant. I've never eating egg plant before, so any suggestions to ease me into it would be much appreciated.

If you made it this far, thanks for letting me vent :) Sometimes we just need to get it out so we can move on =)

2 comments:

tru2me said...

Good luck on the 5k!

Kelly and Eric Scott said...

Kitzzy,

I understand your frustrations. It's good to sometimes vent. It truly is a mind game, and it is important to overcome those "blah" moments, and try to focus on the longer term, bigger picture. Keep up the hard work, and know you are truly an inspiration. :)

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